We were there on a very foggy morning and the atmosphere, coupled with Kate's story inspired me to write the following story. Today I finally completed a small painting to go with it.
She stares out toward the beach seeing nothing this morning but a pale, soft mist. The sea beckons to her as it always does. Her inability to see it only worsens the gravity it exudes. She turns from the window and crosses her room to the door. She hesitates before leaving the safety of her room, its warmth, and the soft snoring of last night’s companions.
Taking a deep breath she opens the door and steps out into the empty corridor. It’s too early for most the the hotel’s guests to be about. She prefers not to be seen anyway, so gathers up her skirt and races quietly down the hall. The door to the stairwell is unlocked and as she pushes through, the hairs at the back of her neck stand on end. It’s a common sensation she experiences each morning as she makes her way down to the beach. Halfway down she experiences the sharp pain in her head and the lightbulb, as often happens, goes out. Once she makes it to the bottom she’s fine. All is normal outside.
The mist, however, is still so thick that the edge of the water cannot yet be seen. She follows the sound of the waves until she is completely engulfed in whiteness. It’s a disconcerting feeling and would be completely disorienting if she were not able to turn and see the soft glow of the gas lamps that are still lit around the hotel, signaling to her the way home. As long as she can still see their light she is not lost. They are her anchor.
She walks further toward the surf. At last she sees the water as it rushes up to splash at the hem of her skirt. Taking a few more steps forward the next wave breaks at her knees and nearly topples her. She stops here. Death looms a few yards out. It’s exhilarating to know that she has that choice. It won’t be today though.
She stands like this for quite some time. The fog dissipates. She begins to hear voices as the other guests begin to file down to dip their feet in the ocean as they enjoy their morning coffee. She turns toward the hotel. The gas lamps have been turned off.
The guests she passes on her way back to her room pay her no mind. It is quite rare for one to acknowledge her existence. They pity her. It’s obvious. How long has she been here tolerating this indifference? She can’t recall. She’s waiting for someone. But, as time passes, she seems to be forgetting for whom it is she waits, just as they seem to have forgotten that she is here.
She returns to her room. Her companions are gone, probably down to breakfast . She isn’t hungry. She returns to her place at the window, looking out onto the beach. Waiting for someone. Waiting for tomorrow.